01. Aloud Reflections
02. The Call
03. Running After You
04. December
05. Desert Man
06. Lies
07. Legend
08. I`m Not There
09. Beautiful Death
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12. Needless Diligence
13. On The Verge
14. A Better Day
15. The Elder
16. Tomorrow
17. Through The Night
18. Sage And Seeker
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Aloud Reflections      . Alexis Mara


We experience instants of depression, being in this place.
And again I feel gusty force of colds.
Days follow days and fall in infinite frosts.
In blizzards and snowfalls, the reality was lost.
And our local reflections, aren`t told aloud.


Ill go on the ways of grief
Burning years in unnecessary struggle
Ill abandon naive dreams
Only thoughts are left for me.


My own world will be covered with snows of despair
And Ill go to the spring on the frozen ground.
But your open heart disappears in prickly lights
Its not so easy as it seems, the reality and dreams
And our local visions wont be shown again.


Ill go on the ways of grief
Burning years in unnecessary struggle
Ill abandon naive dreams
And my thoughts are left for me.


Ill hear your silent scream, when I'm at the last line
Before you take your last sleep in eternal cold.
Ill kiss your frost-bound lips cause your heart's still alive.
The reality which was lost forever in blizzards and frosts
Is the only ray of hope till the end of my life.


Ill go on ways of grief
Burning years in unnecessary struggle
Ill abandon naive dreams
Expectation`s not for me.

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The Call      . Rine


That was Sunday evening at home
She was in her room
Watching TV
The glare from pictures was singing
A lullaby song
To her feelings


In that very moment she felt
So foolishly tricked
By the life
So strangely and clearly she heard
The voices that turned
To her mind


Now you clearly understand
You were living in delirium
Praying to some deceitful idols
Maybe thats your only chance
To throw off the shackles of routine
Just follow the voice inside your mind


Who can tell me why?..
Am I going mad or nearly to die?..
The ground is turning upside down...
Dont hesitate, decide right now!


Now I clearly understand
I was living in delirium
Praying to some deceitful idols
I wont lose my only chance
To throw off the shackles of routine
Ill follow the voice inside me


Now I clearly understand
I was living in delirium
Praying to some deceitful idols
I will take my only chance
To cast off the chains of vicious circle
Ill follow the voice inside my fevered mind


That cold Sunday evening
She followed the steps of the call
For becoming herself

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Running After You      . Alexis


Flying drops are breaking upon the wet face
But I dont think that my vengeance is complete.
And under the rain it draws me ahead
Im blind, I follow the beast.


My evil fate persecutes the beast,
He runs away and loses his strengths.
He feels a threat, he hears my steps,
He will be running ahead and ahead.


I watch your traces; your way is so cruel,
You cry as the rain, but I cry with you.
My loving beast, let tears dry out,
That flow upon your face. I am the same, as you.


I search, I bound, I hide behind you.
I creep, I strike imperceptibly for you.
My silent steps at night may scare you.
My satisfaction is my running after you.


Begin a game, but do not lose the aim.
You are proud, will you prove all to all?
Suffer your pain, your aspirations not vain.
You want to find the hope again.


I hope, that you will forgive me
And youll be able to reach home
Now I know that you will be free
Only here with me, only near me.


I search, I bound, I hide behind you.
I creep, I strike imperceptibly for you.
My silent steps at night may scare you.
My satisfaction, Im running after you.

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December      . Mara


Winter came to our town,
Covered everything with rime
I would give all that is mine
For we had more time.


I created a fairy world
From the secrets that belong
To this pretty little boy
Morbidly alive.


The sky seems to be so close,
The sun sends worm rays to the earth.
You are not here any more,
Forever gone.


You have left me for a place,
Where everything is light and clean.
In my memory your face,
Laughing and young.


My little prince, you were happy in december,
The cold stars highlighted your way.
But the spring comes sooner or later,
I`ll find you in the rain...


I would like to stay forever
In that winter fairy tale
Let him down, my december.
But the memories remain.
Every tear that I cry
Is a drop of endless rain...
There is nothing to explain...


My little prince, you were happy in december,
The cold stars highlighted your way.
But the spring comes sooner or later,
Youll melt under the rain...

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Desert Man      . Rine


Under the hot sun hes holding his way
Dying of thirst, without taking a breath
He knows there isnt a moment to loose
In guileful desert

But, after all
Hell find a vivifying spring
Hell come into blooming gardens
Lying on the grass
Hell leave behind all miseries
Lets hope it wont be mirage

The beads of sweat are streaming down his forehead
The sand and dust are obscuring his eyes
Stand firm, be a man, do not loose you mind
And at the end

Youll find the way
Youll reach a vivifying spring
Youll come into a blooming garden
Quench your thirst
But be careful, dont relax
Beware of getting into mirage

In your bad nightmares you see desert sands
Like a baited beast you go on in your way
You are trying so hard to keep up your life
Only an oasis wont let you to die

Youll find the way
Youll reach a vivifying spring
Youll come into a blooming garden
Quench your thirst
But be careful, dont relax
Beware of getting into mirage

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Lies      . Rine


Lies. The foul snakes of mind
Throwing dust in eyes, they surround me,
I see them everywhere
Lies. Like the swarming insects
Nasty worms or beetles,
Which get their teeth into my wounded soul

Disgust. Im quite wise to resist your lies
Lies. You are like a spider
Spinning webs of flatteries, waiting for a victim
I will not avoid your
Arms. Your examining stare
Is waiting for my error to ensnare me and torment my soul from
Inside. Whyd you tell me lies, looking into my eyes


I had a dream I drifted with stream like a boat on the waves
I felt peaceful and calm carried away
If the world is unreal then its perfectly clear
That the very one truth is to plunge into lies
Giving them all...


Youre My beloved deceiver
Ive an ardent fever I hate you, I hate myself,
I just restrain my
Lust. This unhealthy feeling
Guides me to oblivion. I forget myself,
I lose control, Im melting
Dont look into my eyes. Ill rip the tissue of lies


So thrilling walking on thin ice the stop is impossible,
No turning back, And going forth is frightful.
One step to strength, one step to death,
And one to a deep insight into the truth and lies!


I had a dream, I drifted with stream
Like a boat on the waves I felt peaceful
And calm carried away
If the world is unreal then its perfectly clear
That the very one truth is to plunge into lies.
Giving them all my life.

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Legend      . Rine Mara


It happened long ago
It time of onset
The land was waterlocked
Deep sea all round.
In its depth a dreadful dragon lived
He was named Tsmok Of The Fierce
Every day he tolled a live tribute
Keeping in awe human minds.


At every set of day
New sacrifice came ashore
Taking the last breaths
In the face of imminent death.
Let the guiltless souls
Fly away with the wind
Move to a better world
Leave painful minutes behind, forget and forgive.


The King is deep in grief:
His daughters turn comes
But he has to accept
This sacrifice.
Only the lion-hearted knight-errant
Can put an end to the sorrow.
He goes straight to the Dragons den,
Thrilling the monsters mind


The sound of wind,
The wrath of heavens,
The cries of those who were
Condemned to death,
Beseeching wails,
The fear, despair
Are soaring still above
That tragic place.


At every set of day
New sacrifice came ashore
Taking the last breaths
In the face of imminent death.
And the guiltless souls
Fly away with the wind
Move to a better world
Leave painful minutes behind,
Forget and forgive.

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I`m Not There      . Mara


Sun glimpse in water
Is just a reflection
Of life that I live
Far away from here
There is someone I believe


Life is a long trip
I follow this way
And turn to you in my pray
Wait for me, my friend
And I will come back one day


Empty places
Im far, Im not there
I wish you were here in my heart
I swear Ill take care of your sweet dreams
Ill finish my way at the start.


If you wait for me
I can reach the sky
There is how I love
That is what I`m crying for


Lost and disordered
I keep my direction
To light I can see
I know that far away
There is someone waiting for me


Empty places
Im far, Im not there
I wish you were here in my heart
I swear Ill take care of your sweet dreams
Ill finish my way at the start.

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Beautiful Death      . Alexis Rine


The shadows whirl and dance around me,
Bringing alluring vigour of your lives,
And when you die, then I exult

The charm of this life is in inevitable end.
I wish you understood this truth.
It is your fear to hear my quiet steps so near
Beautiful Death.

I'll take away your truth and your lies,
Kill any sparks of life in your eyes.
All your souls are fading light around me
And very soon they all will disappear.

Im free inside, have no affections,
The fools and geniuses are the same to me.
Wherever you go, whomever you call,
You must vanish away, and I will carry on!

The death is relentless,
There is no sense to entreat it.
Hide in a shadow of your fear.
You wont escape from the evil fate
Thats turning out to be
So awful but beautiful death.

Destroying one and all - it is my nature.
The souls are shouting to me: Leave us alone!
Again and again, my varying face is where the end comes near.
There is no place for pity in the heart of stone

The charm of this life is in inevitable end.
I wish you understood this simple truth.
It is your ecstasy to thrill and wait for me -
Beautiful Death.

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Needless Diligence      . Alexis


It is so easy to go through a life
Using another's talents and merits
Nobody wishes to carry out something
What for do you work on their success?


You need to try to rise on honouring top
And not to fall but besides
Every day you should think out
How to resist to disapproval
And to break their moronic belief
That it all should be just so...


When at last you will make it
They`ll thank you may be
But their thanks as always will last not for long...
Not for long...


Stop and go back
You see that you`d like to see
But you are mistaken.
Your efforts are vain
You`re not necessary to them.
Needless diligence!
Clear a foggy sight
Make contrary to the understanding of
A situation
Now let them decide
To appreciate or not to appreciate your
Needless diligence

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On The Verge      . Rine


Don't fuss, don't cringe,
Don't look with meekness
I know such poor natures pretty well
Dont smile, dont cry
You look so groundless.
Is it your real aim?
Dont try so hard
You strip your weakness.
Better to cut off this ugly farce.
Lets face the truth
New Age is coming.
Time will not wait for us, for us,
Time Will Not Wait for Us ...


You just expect me feel compassion,
But I am not sure to do this right.
Instead of vulgar tricks Ill offer you
A revive amount of a joyful spite.


A small reform
Can hardly harm you
Itll just beat clean your defective brain.
Let the sawdust
Come out of your mind
You will not complain!
Why do you look
So pale and nervous?
Do you really worry about this trash?
Rely on me,
I will not spoil you.
Theres no time for rest.


Dont take a drop for rain.
The tears dont mean the pain.
One whiffs not yet a storm.
Youre just a little worm.


A yellow disk in the heaven
Is making fun of this vanity
The Earth is turning round
Not asking your permit

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A Better Day      . Mara Alexis


Look into my face I know all your thoughts and worries.
I will make you feel calm in failure and in glory.
You hide in yourself like a little bird in the cage,
Watching blindly but pretending to be a sage.


Now catch a moment of time
When I may say
Although you dont look outside
I will give you a better day


Listen to my words there is no point in crying
Everything you reach, it depends on your desire.
Open up yourself, let long-standing dreams become true
Now you steal the show, everybodys looking at you.


Now it is coming the new day,
That will be much better, than all the rest.
The sun will be shining,
The moon will be brighter,
And you will be one of the best.


Now catch a moment of time
When I may say
Although you dont look outside
I will give you a better day

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The Elder      . Kate Grigorchuk


In hidden mystical noland
Enclosed for human intruding on
The Elder fingers play psaltery
He dwells in there for long ago
Dry lips are fused by dumb song they produced
And starry-eyes out of the world.


The strings on psaltery are torn off
And set for free each of the sound.
The time has frozen at noland
And fire of ice is burning him out.
New generations, daydreams and frustrations -
No one is there for passing through.


Listen, rolling stones thunder
Like Earth collapsing in fatal quake.
And music left aside, replaced
By dices flurry in outbreak.


Mental the Elder
In a dark moonless space of his shelter
From hand careless throws now his dices.
Invisible sinews
Of left fate continue
Entwine polyphony of living...

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Tomorrow      . Alexis


I feel tomorrow
Will come last time for me
The moonlight and sunrise,
Clouds and skies see my misery


They took my calm existence
They broke my last decision
I don`t want to be victim
Tomorrow will be action


Never say - you know this war reasons
that is not yours ...
You must go to kill, or be killed if it happens,
If it happens...
Pleasure of the win and wolves are happy
Groans, shouts, crying, damnations for you


I thought tomorrow
Will my revenge come true
But none wish to repay them
Then I will fighting myself
As far as I suffice strength
Let cowards stay to chatter


Never say - you know this war reasons
that is not yours ...
You must go to kill, or be killed if it needs,
If it needs...
Pleasure of the win and wolves are happy
Groans, shouts, crying, damnations for you


If I stop this tribe
I will become great forever
And our perished friends
Will cease to cry in heavens


That night I tracked those creatures
Their tribe became my victims
And wolves will be so happy
Tomorrow


I felt tomorrow

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Through The Night      . Rine


Youve just ended your speech
And you waiting for my reaction
I would say that I am sorry
But I am not
Smoke of a cigarette
Can hardly fill this hanging silence


Mean and wounded
Angry and stubborn
Ill go through the night
No attention to break chatter
And blinding lights of cars going by
The door is closed
Our story is over
And youve said goodbye
Only puddles now can prove and testify
Im not about to cry


You are waiting for something
For some help from the darkness
For sea-breeze from nowhere
In a deep despair
Smoke of a cigarette
Can hardly change this hanging silence

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Sage And Seeker      . Rine


What a wicked fortune has brought you here,
My pitiful guest, my brave wayfarer?
To solitudes of these mountains
Which lay deep in the middle of nowhere?
Or youre from those who clamber high
Inspired with thirst for revelations?
But listen here to my advice
Dont try to surpass your human nature.


I see the aim it's so clear,
The top is shining so near
And every step makes me strong as never before.
I'm playing a dangerous game
That makes me feel like insane,
But the gainings promise to be great.
Further and further,
Higher and higher.
I won't give up,
My will is growing stronger inside me.
Further and higher...
Oh, heaven, it seems I've got there!


Here, faraway from human bustling world
The air is rarefied and thoughts are crystal-clear.
I'm all alone, all-powerful inside,
And now I feel that at long last
I can spread my wings,
I can breathe the real,
I can fly!


On top of the world I'm empty inside.
There's nothing to hide and there's nothing to find.
But what is this sound?
I sense something come now


It seems my times running out.
I dont know what its about
But every move makes me helpless as never before.
The ground is flowing away.
This makes me feel like a stray.
Im falling down into despair...


My dear friend, youre here again,
You've touched the sky, you've seen the daybreak.
But theres a law that youve ignored
The higher you go, the lower is fall, the lower is fall...

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